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So I have pretty much stuffed my shoulder while at work. Which sucks, I have discovered that a shoulder injury completely alters your life while you have it.

I can't work properly - I am limited in what I can do at work, and frankly, half the time I feel useless even being there.

I can't sleep. Its 1.25am, its raining, my shoulder hurts, I am EXHAUSTED! Because I have been awake till the early hours of the morning - or late as in yesterday (5.30 and I had to wake up for work at 7.30.) all bloody week.

I think my pain killers are changing everything. I don't sleep...I have NO appetite, so I'm not even eating properly. And to make matters even worse, I have sever burns on my shoulder due to leaving an 8 hr heat patch on for 12hrs - totally forgot it was on...won't ever forget again!

And its raining..makes it a hell of alot harder to sleep...as if it wasnt hard enough already!

I want to talk to someone...atleast then I wont be laying in bed, wishing I could sleep...in complete silence. It wouldnt be as hard on my mind. The guy I like, he said I could ring if I got bored - he has been keeping me company over the phone cause I cant sleep - but I would feel terrible if he has fallen asleep and I woke him.

So I guess I am doomed to eternal boredom while trying to get to sleep through all the factors that dont seem to what that to happen.

Sorry...Feel too bad to call the guy at this hour...and i needed to vent!

If you get bored in an elevator...

When there's only one other person in the elvator, tap them on the shoulder and then pretend it wasn't you.

Push the buttons and pretend they give you a shock. Smile, and go back for more.

Ask if you can push the button for other people, but push the wrong ones.

Hold the doors open and say your saiting for a friend. After a while, let the doors close, and say, "Hi Greg. How's your day been?"

Drop a pen and wait until someone goes to pick it up, then scream, "That's mine!"

Move your desk into the elevator and whenever anyone gets on, ask if they have an apointment.

Pretend you are a flight attendant and review emergency procedures and exits with the passengers.

When the doors close, announce to the others, "It's okay, don't panic, they open again!"

Grimace painfully while smacking your forehead and muttering, "Shut up, all of you, just shut up!"

Stare at another passenger for a while, then announce in horror, "Your one of THEM!" and back away slowly.

Make explosion noises when anyone presses a button.

Stare, grinning at another passenger for a while, then announce, "I have new socks on".

Draw a little square on the floor with chalk and announce to the other passnegers, "This is MY personal space!"

I see pigs flying! Look - Over there!!!

Yeah, that title has NOTHING to do with what I'm blogging about, lol.

I have been rather confused lately.
I came out of an almost 4 year relationship at the end of October last year. Up until recently I have had no interest in any one of the opposite sex since. I also felt it was unfair to even think about having another relationship because I still had feelings for my ex.
But now I am unsure. I really like a guy that I work with, and apparently he likes me too.
ergh...confused!

What do you do...

...when you have to be somewhere you cannot stand.

When you hate someone so much that you cannot stand to be in their presence any longer, but you cannot leave.

I don't know what to do. I have put up with being treated like nothing for so long, and watching people i care about being yelled at for nothing for so long. But I have not acheived something that I must acheive...and therefore I cannot leave. I have no choice but to stay.